Merry Meet, everyone, though on my end, it's not so merry.
I've been feeling really discouraged lately. My brain disorder is making my life horrible right about now, and I'm on hold with a psychiatrist who may or may not actually try to help me by prescribing medicine. I hate meds, but they work, even though some of them have weird side-effects. I'm no stranger to the world of meds.
Also, it's beginning to dawn on me that my family is, one way or another, going to find out that I am a Wiccan. This wouldn't be so bad, if it weren't for the fact that my paternal family and my stepmother's family are all close-minded weirdos (sorry to say it, I love them, but they're judgmental as heck) and my maternal family is, well, also close-minded and racist. I love my family, of course, but they're just unaccepting of other people who stray too far from what they deem "normal." My father and my stepmother have a child, my half-sister. I'm afraid that if my Southern stepmother finds out I'm Wiccan, she won't let me see my sister that much. It could be something she would do, unfortunately. My mother insists on driving to my house and dragging me to church almost every Sunday, where people look at me odd because I never take off my pentacle necklace (in my opinion, if they don't like it, they don't have to look).
I've been trying to find all my altar items for what feels like ages, though it's only been a few months, and I can't seem to find all the right materials.
All in all, I've just been feeling really down and discouraged. Sorry to have to rant to you all, but I just need a quick outlet. I'd love it if someone could give me advice on what to do, especially about my family thing.
Oh, by the way, is anyone else here making the drive to Salem for Samhain? I know I am - it's a looong way, but it'll be worth it. I've always wanted to see it.